Me: Adulting

I am officially a Bostonian! This morning my mom and I came up to Boston and bought my apartment! I have three room mates, who are all lovely, and welcoming, and helpful. My mother has helped me out greatly with this move and made sure I had everything I needed, from almond butter, to a swiffer duster. So here I am, writing from my lil room in an apartment just outside of Boston, in a quiet neighborhood. Which may I add, is accessible to everything I need to get to. Gosh. It has been so hard. So, so, SO hard. I don't know if this will work out for my mental health/eating disorder but right now, I feel safe, I feel warm, I feel grateful, I have everything that I need. And I could just cry because after so long I am finally secure. I have a job, I have an apartment, I have a trusted outpatient team set up, I know where I am and I know where I am going. I have supports to lean on if I need help. It has been a long time coming, and you know what. I deserve this. I deserve to feel at peace with my situation right now, even if there is still worry and a sense of anxiety. I feel at ease. I'm not worried about what is going to happen tomorrow. I'm not stressed about needing to look in my emails, or scrolling through Craigslist or Indeed or driving to and from Boston, or struggling yet ANOTHER day without treatment. I am here. It is well. For now, it is alright. Rating 10/10.

#Recover #Recovery #Treatment #Mentalillness #Eatingdisorder